Some times I feel that the whole world cannot contain me from the joy and happiness I feel, the selfconfidence I hold, and the optimistic view to life I have. This makes me feel in peace and harmony with myself and empowers me to continue the way no matter what others may say or throw about a certain thing I did, still doing, or intend to do in the future. I cannot ignore that I am easily affected by the words of other people, and I feel that I am meant in any statement they say even though they are saying it in a completey different context. But then, I watch the development of the dialogue and conclude that I wasnt meant or the words werent intentioned to leave an effect in myself.
Other times I start to hate myself; I start to bring and gather all the passimism of the world until I cannot handle it any more. I begin evaluating what I have did in my life in a completely negative approach. Its not a self-criticism process, I know that, because it doesnt lead to a corrective action. Its just a summation a negative energy blowed into my mind thats doesnt aim to anything but deconstructing my self confidence and make me feel that I live in the fringe of life, not in its center. I cant describe how I feel. I start seeing everything awkward, meanigless, aimless, and causeless. I can't find after that any spot of light that may raise my spirit again. This really annoys me until I configure that its useless to remain thinking of the whole thing and then retreat into bed whatever the time in order to dissiminate the bad energy away from my mind and start undergoing a process of self-recompilation that drives me into another neutral state where I can start again, and find another cause of completing what I was doing before, positively.
What remains is the reason for all the optimism or the passimisn that comes an goes, It may be the new environmrnt I am living in, or the work pressure, or the new faces am seeing through the day, I really don't know, the future will tell.
Other times I start to hate myself; I start to bring and gather all the passimism of the world until I cannot handle it any more. I begin evaluating what I have did in my life in a completely negative approach. Its not a self-criticism process, I know that, because it doesnt lead to a corrective action. Its just a summation a negative energy blowed into my mind thats doesnt aim to anything but deconstructing my self confidence and make me feel that I live in the fringe of life, not in its center. I cant describe how I feel. I start seeing everything awkward, meanigless, aimless, and causeless. I can't find after that any spot of light that may raise my spirit again. This really annoys me until I configure that its useless to remain thinking of the whole thing and then retreat into bed whatever the time in order to dissiminate the bad energy away from my mind and start undergoing a process of self-recompilation that drives me into another neutral state where I can start again, and find another cause of completing what I was doing before, positively.
What remains is the reason for all the optimism or the passimisn that comes an goes, It may be the new environmrnt I am living in, or the work pressure, or the new faces am seeing through the day, I really don't know, the future will tell.
ps: missed appostrophes are intentioned
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